Chasing Tail Lights

i just dont like it.

any part of it

but i gotta change somthing

i think ill smoke then go for a walk to a store and think about things
and then at the store ill steal some things.
then ill think about how cool the things i stole are

i dnt see it but other ppl do

im less fun to be around i guess
but its not like i go out much anyway
if im not speeding hours on end, in my own little world of amphetamine fun
im too tired
too depressed
to do much else

so what is it. do i live my life feeling good for 6 hours then shit the next 36. or do i quit.

i already know the answer

im finally off probation

weed- for shmoking

lighter- for firee

squares- for cancer

condoms- for fucking

money- for spending

phone- for calling da bitches

speed- for motivation

drank- for dranking

camera- for remebering

not again.
i just dont :(

3.0 gpa

making 25 hour/week at work

got a $650 check to cash

getting of probation in 2 1/2 weeks

still i feel soo depressed. idk why

either im about to have one of my less than regular periods

or im pregnant